The Deep Deep Love of Jesus. – Sovereign Grace (Song Here)

I know many will balk at this statement. Some will mock and scorn. I may be called uneducated, ignorant, or many unsavory names. Things I most definitely am not, all from people who do not know me.

I could have chosen not to write this post. To leave out this one main detail of my life that I know may be scoffed at. But that is not who I am, nor is it who I want to be. In my about page I mentioned I was a missionary. Yes, I am one of “those” people who can’t conform to societies views of religion and how it should be practiced. I am one who wants to take my faith out and use it to love and serve others everyday.

I am writing this post because I want my readers to know me. Not every single detail of course, but I had a hard time the past week or so, trying to write a post about smaller things going on in my life. I realized today it was because I have yet to share the biggest thing.  I know it is a strange world view for some, even those who have a religion they follow, but my faith is not just a large part of my life. It is my life. My God, my Jesus, and the love he pours out on me everyday? It is who i am and to separate who I am from His love is impossible. I would be a empty husk.

I am not writing this to throw my beliefs into others faces. By all means, close the page if you so choose. I am writing this because today God once again reminded me of his unending love and the mercy that I am in constant need of. That no matter how many mistakes I make or how many times I screw up, (which is every single day) He is still there. I am never abandoned even when I know I definitely deserve it. When I am disgusted or ashamed. Depressed or broken-hearted. When even the most loving, forgiving, altruistic person on the planet would give me up as a bad job, Jesus is still there not only loving me but accepting me and claiming me as his own.

For those that have not encountered His love or don’t believe such a thing exists, I cannot explain it to you. Just as no one can truly describe what it is to be in love to some one who has never experienced it, or the love between a parent and child to those who have never had children. I can only assure you it is real. I see his fathomless grace at work in me everyday. His hand is so evident in everything around me in big ways and small.

I think the real reason I am writing this is because I just couldn’t keep it in. I love Him so much and it just had to spill out. Today it spilled onto this page. A love letter of sorts to the God who loves me beyond realm of human comprehension. A love letter to the one without whom I would be totally and utterly lost. I sincerely hope that you, whoever you are, will be able to experience this love for yourself someday, if you haven’t already. There is truly nothing in this world to compare.